hello everyone. my name is mike and i am an occasional tilter.
i currently have a lot of stress in my life which makes it difficult for me to sleep. sometimes i go 3 or 4 days only getting 4 or 5 hours a night. sometimes i am able to get a short nap in which usually isn't enough. i take melatonin which helps and when i really need it i'll take trazodone. about once, maybe twice a week i'll get a good 8 or 9 hours.
i think about the game all the time and i am relentless when it comes to working on my game. if i'm in my car i'm listening to Bart. if i'm at home i'm reading a poker book, watching CLP or browsing SeatOpen or sometimes 2+2. this is probably my greatest strength and at the same time my biggest flaw. my game has improved drastically since Black Friday, when i stopped playing online and made a promise to myself to really work on my game.
so my current situation is that i am an unimployed construction working who has been laid off again for the last 3 months. so naturally this is when i put my skills to the test and try to supplement my unemployment insurance which is nowhere near enough . i've been crushing the games running well and playing well and ran a $200 buy-in up to $6300 over 360 hours starting at 1/2NL and then moving to 2/5NL.
varience has been tough lately though and it's right around the 3 month mark of being laid off that the stress really kicks in because that is when i my health insurance runs out. i won't think about my problems all day long but as soon as i rest my head the floodgates open. so obviously this is no good if i want to play semi-profesionally. i've tried telling myself "i'll just play tight" or "i'll take lots of breaks" or "i'll drink a shit ton of green tea". sometimes it works. but it's a fine line and when it backfires, lol it gets bad.
so yesterday after basically giving away a buy-in i made a promise to myself to work on playing +ev hours. i'm also going to take a break from the game entirely. i also am going to try to eat healthier and exercise more. i love the game and not being able to play is not an option.
i am in noway looking for sympathy or a handout. i wrote this more for myself than anything else. it's kind of long so i wouldn't be suprised if nobody read it but i welcome all feedback. so feel free to tell your tales of tilt.
have you ever tilted in anyway?
do you used to tilt a lot but have taken measures to eliminate it and now you hardly ever tilt?
do you have bad habits of playing tired?
do you have any tips or tricks you use to avoid tilt?
what are your eating and sleeping habits?
do you exercise? how often?
p.s. part of working on my game has been working on not tilting. i used to tilt all the time and have been able to keep it to a minimum but sometimes all habits resurface i guess. thank you Tommy Angelo and Jerod Tendler.